Happy Birthday Astu!

If I could wish something for myself, this birthday I would wish for peace in my heart, confusions out of my head, a fitter body and a happier soul. I want a change from the life as I know it now and want to strive to become a better individual. (cliche' but true!) If I'm being honest, I also want people to love me for being myself and understand what makes me tick. I want to be that special person who lights them up with just her presence. Oh and did I forget to say I wanna runaway? Yup at twenty six, that's exactly what I want to do.

I'm 26. Youth as we know it, is officially on it's way out. I'm on the other side of twenties. You are supposed to have had the best years of your life by now. The carefree years, where you have quite literally done it all. But when I look back at the list of "Ten things to do" I had made some years ago, I have not done too many still... Ok being positive let me first check the things I did manage-
PG Degree- check
Become an AVM- check
Dance class- check
Get a tattoo- check

Now for the things still pending...
Trip abroad
Learn an instrument
28" waistline
River rafting
Parasailing / scubadiving and
Seing snow.

It's funny, when I think of my "ideal life" I don't think about the company I work 3/4th of my life for, or the boss who upsets me with his disapproval. I don't think about the countless cribs I spend being stressed about or the baby I have been trying too hard to get. I do however think about the passion for music and travel that still lies in my heart, of harmony in my body and mind and true companionship.

I hate this self awareness that's irritating me right now like a popup in my brain's screen that just reads "What have you done to change things? Do you really love yourself?"

If I loved myself as much as the people I love, I would wish for me a greater self awareness, a stronger self respect, and an appetite for excitement. I'd wish the world conspires to make all my wishes come true.... :)

So I guess it's in my hands afterall. I can always make the changes. I can spend sometime falling in love with myself. I can take things in control and not loose sight of things I want to do. So here's wishing 2009-10 becomes the ideal year I turn back to, when I had it all and loved my life. The year when I finally fell in love... with myself ofcourse!

The New Voice of India...

I love the New Voice of India. It's the Voice that wakes up fresh every morning ready to take on the world; its ever ready to take on challenges and is not afraid of being mis-interpreted.
In reality the voice of our generation has never been this loud. This voice does not complain or whine or make excuses. It leads by example, replacing apathy with empathy, disillusionment with belief, words with action. It’s a new India that awakens every morning and looks at itself with pride; an India that wants to live up to its glorious ideal of democracy. It is an India that has hope for a better future and wants to do something about it. Which is ready to take matters in its hands and not blame the government for everything wrong happening. It is spontaneous, filled with high energy and ready to compel people to take hard decisions. It manages a good balance between spontaneity and impulsiveness. And is ready to ask questions never asked before.

It's a voice that wants to be heard and is ready to scream in your ears if you aren't paying attention. I love this voice which is so alive; it gives you a high just listening. It's an energy, its spontaneity, its a wonderful way to live. What it means is we are living in the moment.

Welcome to this new generation. May this enthusiasm live forever. :)

Ode to an unusual friendship...

There are many ways of loosing people. Some you loose when life as you know it, ends; some: when you don't find the time to remain in touch; while others 'coz things just don't work out! No matter why, loosing a good friend is always difficult.

Here's an ode to one such friendship.

When you laugh, it's contagious...
I just have to laugh along-side!
But these moments seemed to have been in the past
friendship with you, just didn't last.


We knew there was no future in all this,
risking everything we still didn't miss,
a single chance to enjoy destiny's hand
hoping people would learn to understand.

You moved me in ways that left a sign,
we spoke till your beliefs became mine
and I never stopped to think
how would life be when things just end.

The day did finally come,
when you were left to pick one;
you chose the right thing to do,
I understood and really didn’t miss
Its just sad it came to all this.

I hope you know now,
I always wished your best
Life is fun and I wish you only delight
I wish “He” would keep you in sight!

P.S:
It was a choice no one should make
for life’s not always as simple to shake!