Love or Something Like it!

Sometimes Profound Love is found in a moment... Sometimes a lifetime of looking is not enough...

I am emotionally touched by the latest novel I read... One of my close friends gave it to me and asked me to read it... I am sure most of you must have already read it- it's quite a famous one actually but for some reason I never got around to reading it before. "Bridges of Madison County". The story is of an unusual but once-in-a-lot-of-lifetimes kindda lovestory between Francesca (the farmer's wife from Iowa) and Robert Kincaid (the National Geographic photographer).

The story moved me in ways that is hard to express. Let me try breaking it down for you... There were some lines that I completely loved in the book, and they had nothing to do with the lead characters falling in love.

"But it's not what I dreamed about as a girl"

"The dreams were good dreams, they didn't work out, but I'm glad I had them."

"This is why I'm here on this planet, at this time, Francesca. Not to travel or make pictures, but to love you. I know that now. I have been falling from the rim of a great high place, and through all those years, I have been falling towards you."

"As much as I want you and want to be a part of you, I cant tear myself away from the realness of my responsibilities"

"In a universe of Ambiguity, this kind of certainity comes only once, no matter how many lifetimes you live."

Wow! It really is the work of a true genius... Anyone who can capture emotions that well has to be called a genius. I am no-die-hard-romantic, but even I could feel the emotions that the characters went through- the pain... the agony... the yearning... the decision of responsibility over passion! All I can say is that it is a work of art that stirs something deep within and touches even the heart of a cynic. It is love, the way never told before. It is life itself!

While ending this, I can't help but remember these verses from a favourite song... "This is the beginning of your day, Life is more intricate than it seems, Always be yourself along the way, Living through the spirit of your dreams..."

Happy Birthday Astu!

If I could wish something for myself, this birthday I would wish for peace in my heart, confusions out of my head, a fitter body and a happier soul. I want a change from the life as I know it now and want to strive to become a better individual. (cliche' but true!) If I'm being honest, I also want people to love me for being myself and understand what makes me tick. I want to be that special person who lights them up with just her presence. Oh and did I forget to say I wanna runaway? Yup at twenty six, that's exactly what I want to do.

I'm 26. Youth as we know it, is officially on it's way out. I'm on the other side of twenties. You are supposed to have had the best years of your life by now. The carefree years, where you have quite literally done it all. But when I look back at the list of "Ten things to do" I had made some years ago, I have not done too many still... Ok being positive let me first check the things I did manage-
PG Degree- check
Become an AVM- check
Dance class- check
Get a tattoo- check

Now for the things still pending...
Trip abroad
Learn an instrument
28" waistline
River rafting
Parasailing / scubadiving and
Seing snow.

It's funny, when I think of my "ideal life" I don't think about the company I work 3/4th of my life for, or the boss who upsets me with his disapproval. I don't think about the countless cribs I spend being stressed about or the baby I have been trying too hard to get. I do however think about the passion for music and travel that still lies in my heart, of harmony in my body and mind and true companionship.

I hate this self awareness that's irritating me right now like a popup in my brain's screen that just reads "What have you done to change things? Do you really love yourself?"

If I loved myself as much as the people I love, I would wish for me a greater self awareness, a stronger self respect, and an appetite for excitement. I'd wish the world conspires to make all my wishes come true.... :)

So I guess it's in my hands afterall. I can always make the changes. I can spend sometime falling in love with myself. I can take things in control and not loose sight of things I want to do. So here's wishing 2009-10 becomes the ideal year I turn back to, when I had it all and loved my life. The year when I finally fell in love... with myself ofcourse!