Sunday, December 7, 2008

Numbed Spirit!

Posted by astuti at 3:50 PM 0 comments

I was in Mumbai this last week. Had reached the mighty city, along side the terrorists (or so my friends said.) When at first I heard about the terror attack I didn't even react. I was getting frantic calls through out the night and the next day from worried loved ones who knew I was in the city but well I was actually numb. No anger the way I had felt in "Delhi cries" http://astutalks.blogspot.com/2008/09/delhi-cries.html", or fear... No feelings whatsoever to tell you the truth... And that was what scared me.

Since then I have read & seen hundreds of reports on "what happened?"! I have tried to follow people's discussions on "who did it??"! And read emails after emails petitioning people to wake up! But I seem to have gone into a deep slumber. It's as if it's not happening to me... I am in a daze almost like I am seeing everything like a fish looking at humans outside an aquarium. And this for sure scares me!

I read some really amazing writeups about the "Mumbai Spirit" and how the people are simply untouched by what happens... Actually 24 hours after the supposed worst terror attack on the country, I was actually there to see the city go back to normal. It stunned me to think about the 'Mumbai Spirit'! I was left wondering if it's awesome that they can get out of it so soon or awful that they forget so fast!!! And yes this supposed food for thought scared the shit out of me...

I am but a common man who's scared... Who wants to do something but doesn't know how... Who would simply like to sit inside her cosy home and point fingers at someone else whose not doing their job... I know I am lazy, scared and hard to please but I am your average Indian.

It's scary to think... But Jaipur... Bangalore... Ahemdabad... Assam... Delhi and Mumbai... I wonder where next will this heat hit! And when would we not be as vulnerable to the whole thing and be able to start feeling something more...!

 

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