Astuti calling Astuti

I’m a Pisces, and by that astrological fact, you get two for the price of one. (Two fishes floating opposite each other remember?) Actually, it’s just a nicer way of expressing social schizophrenia. I’ve come to terms with the reality that there are two of me in most circumstances and situations. Looking into the mirror, the dual thoughts and conflicting emotions that come flying my way through my reflection gives full justification to the oh-so-many wrinkles around my eye. This split personality of mine, is daunting on some days, and completely liberating on others. Most days I’m fairly well put together; facing the world with a smile- my personalities working in sync and in relative harmony, but off-late I’ve been feeling the need to touch base, and try to get on the same personality planet with myself. So today, I’ve decided to have a talk, a heart to heart, from the same heart, from one Astuti, (currently living in denial), to the other, who is not so deluded. Here goes… 


1. Seriously woman, Get a life! No one's interested in you whining all the time. And you do whine all the time!
2. Nothing's working for you... So what? Deal with it! Talking about it all the time and to everyone... is only making you a boring person to hang out with.
3. So you're not a mommy yet...! Telling others what you think they should be doing (as mommies) is only going to alienate them- it's far easier to be a judge than a participant remember? Wait for your turn, get 24x7 experience and then talk your words of wisdom.
4. Get a job. Jeez! please go back to being independent. No, your husband's not going to support the crazy whims and ideas of expenditure that comes into your mind all the time.
5. Make new friends- your current set of friends are busy with their lives; get used to it.
6. So you wanna travel? what's so legend... wait for it ...dary about it...? So does the world!
7. Join that yoga/ dance class you want to. What's stopping you, you idiot?
8. Come on girl, just get down to finishing the stupid list of books and movies you've never had the time for while working, why are you so bloody lazy all the time?
9. Yes you have fallen into a rut... So get outta their. No one can come and do that for ya! Just freaking move before more shit falls on you.
10. And yes Astuti, when normal life resumes, you are going to feel like an idiot for having wasted this break; so do something- anything really!


Take care,
Love,
Astuti